[ I have spoken a thought that is evil, his mind cries; a deep pain to have voiced this, to have asked of anyone the presence of thought to even consider this route. He has said something unforgivable, not only to these people, but to himself and his own belief in the beauty and sacredness of life.
But, someone had to. It cannot be a deviation from his overarching morality, to look at this moment and say what needed to be said. To ask for mercy, for people who might choose to struggle before they die — but, who will not know enough to understand what is happening. None of the Shard-Bearers did, and is it so evil to want to spare others agony? ]
I know this choice is as good as murder, but. I just can't bear the idea that right now, we can protect them from pain. Meridian might even prevail and restore them — so, why not do this now?
[ It's so horrible! To demand people experience a bitter end, unknowing and unprepared; to demand they experience it, alone, because the ones choosing for them will not be there to feel every inch of their terror and pain. ]
I may be killing them, but at least my choice will be made because I cannot abide the thought of making them suffer without having the ability to suffer at their side.
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[ I have spoken a thought that is evil, his mind cries; a deep pain to have voiced this, to have asked of anyone the presence of thought to even consider this route. He has said something unforgivable, not only to these people, but to himself and his own belief in the beauty and sacredness of life.
But, someone had to. It cannot be a deviation from his overarching morality, to look at this moment and say what needed to be said. To ask for mercy, for people who might choose to struggle before they die — but, who will not know enough to understand what is happening. None of the Shard-Bearers did, and is it so evil to want to spare others agony? ]
I know this choice is as good as murder, but. I just can't bear the idea that right now, we can protect them from pain. Meridian might even prevail and restore them — so, why not do this now?
[ It's so horrible! To demand people experience a bitter end, unknowing and unprepared; to demand they experience it, alone, because the ones choosing for them will not be there to feel every inch of their terror and pain. ]
I may be killing them, but at least my choice will be made because I cannot abide the thought of making them suffer without having the ability to suffer at their side.