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last man standing. ([personal profile] baltimores) wrote in [community profile] kenoscomm2024-02-24 01:07 pm

ota;

[ This isn't exactly something he does. Not on this scale, at least.

This communion's presence is akin to stepping off into the vacuum of space, cold and dark and empty. A void without feeling, submersed into nothingness — but deep enough there's also the faint pulse of a drowned, hurting heart. And even though it's coming from Amos, there's the sense of him curiously poking at it like an open wound.

It has been a couple of weeks since he killed Cyrus, a fact he has not bothered to hide. A couple of weeks since he has been forced to contend with the responsibility he bears for the deaths of innocents in Springstar, and so — ]


Hey.

[ When he speaks his voice is soft, and gentle, and something that could maybe even be called repentant. Or at least trying to be, the concept being a very, very, very new one for him. ]

So, I've been doing some thinking. There was this time I got caught up in a mass casualty event. Lady I knew then was a nurse, so she was doing what she could, because it had to be done. She also took the time to spend time with the dead. All of them, I think. I didn't really get it then, but I think maybe now...

[ He trails off, fumbling with his words. That pulse maybe grows a little stronger, and then he's back. ]

I dunno how feasible it is, but we should be collecting the names of everyone who died during all of this. When we make the new world — [ because there is no doubt in his mind that Zenith is going to succeed, and their new world will be made — ] we can build some kind of monument. Put everyone's names on it. Give people a space to take their moments with them, even if they ain't here anymore.

I know this don't exactly fix anything, but it's a start. I can keep track of the names. [ There's another pause, and when Amos speaks again, he's much more sure of himself. ] I won't forget them.
escardos: (quatorze.)

[personal profile] escardos 2024-02-24 08:57 pm (UTC)(link)
That's great! I was worried for a sec there.

[ worried about amos? or worried about something else entirely. ]

If it had to be done, then it had to be done. I don't agree with the methods, but as long as you're sure that you don't feel guilty about it, then that's that.

[ war is...stupidly complex, he realizes. unnecessarily so. ]

But then why are you suggesting this? Isn't remembering everyone a lot of unnecessary weight on your shoulders?
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[personal profile] escardos 2024-02-25 01:32 am (UTC)(link)
[ there is nothing from flat that has changed. at least, not from flat's perspective. the excitableness is just as much a part of him as it is the endless, empty expanse in his gaze as he continues staring at and through amos.

there is no judgement from the mage's behalf as the man continues talking. only an owlish gaze as he cocks his head to the side, smile still fixed to his face like as if it were sewn on. ]


That's the part I don't get. I don't get why you're putting yourself under cold water in the first place. Those that are dead are dead. I'd understand it if these people were close to you, but they're not even that. Who's asking you to do this?

[ because it doesn't seem to be a popular motion within the people replying to the communion. ]
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[personal profile] escardos 2024-02-25 08:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[ in that moment, everything seems to click together for flat. he needs no further explanation about amos' motivatoin. if he wanted to, he could end the communion right now, and consider his question answered. why is amos doing this? because he wants to do what he thinks yima would want.

it's hardly any different from what made flat choose meridian over zenith— it's what his professor would have done. maybe on a different level from "kickstarting a massacre via political assassination", but similar enough to get the gist of it.

flat sees no point in dissuading him. it'd be like telling the birds not to sing or dogs not to bark. but he is still curious. he is always, always curious. ]


Sorry, I think I need to make this a bit more private, just in case. [ he'd rather protect his and amos' minds from any pesky onlookers, whoever they might be. the communion shifts, emphasizing just how alone they are. and yet, flat feels at home in this loneliness. ]

Why would she want this, then? [ once again back to the same question: what's the point in mourning the dead when you ordered the hit in the first place? ] Does she regret it?
escardos: (treize.)

[personal profile] escardos 2024-02-27 05:10 am (UTC)(link)
Aha! Sorry for the misunderstanding, then. Now I think I get it.

[ flat claps his hands together, the usual brand of cheer that's attached to flat escardos still noticeable in the communion. perhaps it's here where amos can see best the idiosyncrasy that is "flat escardos". though his jovial nature and even his apology all come without a shred of deceit or falsehood, the hollowness behind it is ever present.

he's silent for a few seconds, staring ahead. yeah, he thinks he gets it too, deep down. when your sky is void of light, having someone else as your north star is like a saving grace. ]


I guess I can't really help you out then. [ a pause. ] But not because I don't like the plan. Well, I did think it was inefficient, but if it helps you out in the long run, then maybe it won't be that bad if you guys win. [ but with a small tilt of his head and slightly lonely smile, he adds: ] It's just that I don't have any names to give you in the first place.

[ because he never bothered to look. ]
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[personal profile] escardos 2024-02-28 03:39 am (UTC)(link)
Oh...sure! I don't mind.

[ flat returns amos' smile with one of his own, along with an enthusiastic bob of his head. he didn't expect the other to still ask that favor of him, and it takes him by slight surprise. it's a pleasant surprise, however, and his agreement is genuine. ]

We might be on different sides, but that doesn't mean we can't help each other out, right?

[ does he know how silly he sounds, saying this to the man that killed meridian's leader? most likely not. it might not even have even remotely registered on his radar. ]

You'll be okay, right? Tough crowd and all.
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[personal profile] escardos 2024-03-02 04:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[ friends.

the word makes flat pause, blue eyes wide as plates as he hears that word. though it's a word that he throws around fairly often, he rarely hears it directed towards him so straightforwardly and especially unprompted. that's usually his job, after all. pushing the concept of friendship unto others until they have no choice but to reluctantly accept it.

so maybe amos did need to say it out loud. so that flat could also have the reassurance that he didn't know he even needed in the first place. ]
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[personal profile] escardos 2024-03-02 04:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[ it's nice to hear it, that's all there is.

he smiles back, giving the man an enthusiastic nod without a care in the world for alliances and all that other riffraff. ]


Yeah! Same here!

[ sure, he knows that they're still technically opponents. he knows that he might never convince this man to switch sides, and he doesn't want to. if amos feels comfortable with the life that he's living, then flat's more than happy to accept that— as his friend. ]

Alright, sir, have a good day!

[ and with a final chirp, he blinks out of the space as he ends the communion on his end. he leaves as smoothly and as quickly as he came in, leaving not a single bit of his presence remaining. as if he were never there in the first place. ]